Published February 8, 2010 |
To who ever finds this letter:
How can this be happening? I was fine minding my own affairs, and then total blackness and searing pain. I realized at once I had died and now am in Hell. How can I be in Hell I was a good person I never hurt anyone, I never stole ,killed, cheated on my wife and all the other things that send people to Hell Why? why Am I here . There are so many people here at least I think their people when I bump into them its total darkness here I canít see anything the only way I think I can tell they were human is sometimes I can hear their piercing screams above my never ending screams. Thereís nothing here but darkness and a burning heat that totally surrounds you at all times the pain,torment,fear,and darkness never ends. There is also other beings here when they slide around you in the dark there is such a fear then they bite you ripping out chunks of flesh, they must be the worms that the Bible says will never die. How did I get here? I was no worse than others. All the bad people go to Hell the thiefs,queers,adultrey folks, liars, murders, all the ones who do evil not people like me. I went to church,altho I usually thought about when is the old windbag going to stop preaching the game starts at noon or wow she looks hot in that dress or Iím bored and hungry but at least I went wasnít that good enough.
I believed in God but now that its to late I know the devil believes in God but heís here too. I thought I was a Christian I went to church, helped others, was basically a good person when it would make me look good. I mean who has time for God in life, I had better things to do I mean I need a big home lots of powerful friends, money to get ladies with I need to have my life the way I wanted it God was just an after thought but my God if I only knew.
The pain is unbearable but I will endure it for eternity it will never end, the great life I had all those wasted years was just a drop compared to forever. ohhh God i want out I am willing to do what God wants just let me out but its useless Iíll never get out . I always thought there were other ways to Heaven surely everyone will get in God loves us all. Yes God loves us all so much He honored my choice to not have him in my life, it was my choice to ignore the only way to Heaven this is all my fault not Gods He loved me so much he let me have my way. Now itís to late for me even though I canít see anything I know thousands of people a day come here Hell gets bigger everyday you can feel it. You know what you are missing out on you know itís your fault all I had to do was accept Jesusí work on the cross itís so simple Jesus did the hard part he did it all why? ohhh why? wouldnít I listen people told me how to get to heaven I just laughed I made fun of them I refused to listen. Now look at me forever it will never end.
Even the worse thing you think could happen to you is nothing. I would love to be alive on Earth again and be the sickest person, a cripple ,anything anything just to have another chance to know Jesus nothing no pain no fear no ridicule even compares to this.
One last thought you reading this a head knowledge of Jesus is not enough Satan has that you need a true relationship with Jesus he is the only way out of this horrible eternity I have chosen. Please find a Bible, a person, a church some how find Jesus beg, plead, demand someone help you. You donít want to make the same mistake I did.
Hell is very real itís not a joke. You have been warned , if you have finished this letter you have no excuse. Choose this day who you will serve Jesus or are you coming to see me, itís your choice, Please pass this letter on and I hope I never see you here
From A soul in Hell Written by John Speer